I take some things too seriously.

Maybe it's a teenage thing. Or maybe it's just a girl thing.

I've come to realise that after many awkward conversations I've had with others, I later seem to over analyse the scenario WAY too much. Personally, when I talk to some people that I may not know too well, or the conversation doesn't seem to be going too well, I get pretty nervous. Naturally, this causes me to stutter and stumble, which never really boosts your confidence. I don't know if this only happens to me, (I'm sure it doesn't!) but it happens quite frequently, and ends in embaressment on my part.

You'd think that after the situation, my little insecure brain would shrug it off and get over it, right? You thought wrong. It then believes that it needs to break down every single part of the conversation; what I said, what the other person said and how the other person reacted to have made me feel like an idiot in the first place. This whole process ends with me degrading myself and my self esteem levels being a little low. Not such a great feeling.

I have to admit though, lately when this has happened, I have been able to shrug it off, but that somewhat "guilty" feeling (I have no idea why it feels like guilt, but it still feels similar) is always there. But fortunately, being able to shrug it off shortens the discouraging experience.

Referring back to my title, I do take some things too seriously. However, as much as I try, some of these things I just can't control. Like the example of over analyzing. I guess that it will only be a matter of time, and as I get older and I develop my people skills, I will become more confident with making conversation and it will get less awkward. Plus, as I get older I'm sure I won't worry as much about what people think about me, and I won't have to stress out over a conversation that the other person probably won't even be thinking about in the following few hours of their day.

HaylieGrace.xo